In reviewing the sample list of commonly held negative core beliefs to "I can't be a successful, prolific, creative artist because..." I found one that felt especially true to me at the moment. Number 13. I will never have any real money. (Death is the Number 13 Card in the Tarot, and I pulled one recently and it was reversed...meaning I am stuck on an old issue. So this may well be it.)
I can't be a successful, prolific, creative artist because I will never have any real money.
Julia advised listening to blurts and converting them to affirmations, and interestingly, just last Saturday, I was at a Brahma Kumaris meditation center where we did exactly this exercise, and I felt good. Now I needed the exercise of prayer again. That as an enlivening session and a story for another day.
So, I took that core negative belief (number thirteen in Julia's list), a pen, and a piece of paper, and wrote for ten minutes. "Creator God, Eternal God, One True God, Dad... I am afraid of poverty. I am afraid of becoming impoverished. I am afraid of having no money to pay for bills and obligations. Please provide for me. Please comfort me. Dad, I feel that this is all my fault that we have no money, that you are somehow punishing me. But this is old beliefs about you. I don't believe in that god anymore, that was punitive and exacting and harsh. Please help me have faith..." and so on until my timer went off.
I like this exercise of wrestling a negative belief in prayer. I think it works for me.
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