Throes

I always fear that I am at the brink of despair, and I'm only barely holding on.  I just finished Romeo and Juliet rerun with Manila Shakespeare Company in August, and then there's Skin Deep entry The Thing About Bridges, which is a play about a suicidal man who was unwittingly helped by the most unlikely chap.  I feel I did good in Bridges.  Too bad very few people saw it.  Marketing for plays seriously needs a revamp into the 21st Century.

I know that whenever I end plays I get a "crash," which I feel will never go away.  The usual cure is to work on a new play, but I am working on my novel, with a deadline in ten days, so I can't just audition now.  I need to be writing.

Even moreso, I feel bummed out that William is doing a rerun and I've not been asked to reprise.  What a let down.  I'd love to do Tj Domingo again.  I also wish I had a part in Trumpets' The Horse and His Boy by C.S. Lewis no less!  Oh, well.

So here's me wishing out to the Universe that I get back on stage soon, at the right time.

I drew the Five of Cups today, and it said it symbolized sadness, mourning, disappointment, regret, suffering, emotional adjustment.  Here is its advise:

If you're feeling sad or down today, honor those feelings.  Don't try to push them away.  Whatever loss or disappointment you've experienced lately deserves to be felt.  When you take the time to really feel your feelings, you can process them, learn from them, and then move forward, with greater self-awareness and wisdom.

The Five of Cups represents loss.  When it appears, feelings of disappointment, regret, sadness and grief are at work.  The loss suffered is of something dear to the heart.  The lesson here is that with loss also comes change, and with change, opportunity.  We can avoid loss if we avoid pursuing our heart's desire, but if we have the courage to risk loss we may also gain true fulfillment.

I thought it was apt to share that to everyone today.